25.... do we hear 25?

25...... How did we get here so quickly? It's less than a month, almost 3 weeks and some change.... We sat outside on the porch last night... our porch of our amazing home, and just talked. It reminded me of the evenings in deadwood- we lived in Broadwell aka Deadwood for a while..... Just him and I and a quiet night talking about old times, talking about the kids, talking about just random stuff..... If I could have stopped time I think I would have done so last night. It was nothing spectacular, just normal, quiet us and it was amazing. It was a quiet reminder of why I fell in love with him in the first place.

I think back to the beginning of us, like the real beginning... was it when I was 13 and crushing on the "bad-boy" on the block or was it when I was 30 something, faced with seeing him again after 20 long years. I don't know, it was probably a combination of both. I adored him when I was a kid, and I was just as excited to get to know him once again.

Now we are married, not quite 2 1/2 years, with six kids between us. And now we are looking at another year apart. It breaks my heart every moment I think about it. I just don't know how to go through my days without him........ Scratch that, I know how, I just don't want to. I don't want to come into this house and know he's not here. I don't want to celebrate holidays without him here. Pity party of one.... RSVP'ing!!

Bleh... it is one of those days for me I suppose.

I did get a lot done over the weekend and feel somewhat accomplished. Madelyn's room is finally finished! The "stall" wall in the bathroom is down making it one big room without the stall. It's next on the list of painting. I tried some paint on the wall, but I don't know if I like it or not. I also pulled weeds in the front, had the stone flower pots moved and worked a little on the outside sign. The yellow dining room is also finished... yep, pretty productive.

My two oldest are on their way to Beanblossum Bluegrass Festival tomorrow am bright and early, and the Bell portion of my kids are going to their Grandma's on Friday for an overnighter. So Friday night will just be me, T and the spare... so dinner and GROCERY STOCK UP is mandatory.... we are down to nothing in the fridge/ freezer/ pantry.....

So good-bye day 25.... Hello.... Day 24 how I loathe you and all that will come after you........